When it comes to writing I blow hot and cold. I go through periods when I am creative and manage to finish a story off in a week or two. Other times it is not as simple and two paragraphs into a story I end up deleting every word. It is as though I know after a paragraph or two whether or not a story has legs. If it has no legs it is deleted. I show no mercy as the longer I write a story that I know is not very good. The more frustrated I get.
And frustration when you are writing is not good. You want to be able to write as much as you can and to like it. You may not like a particular character or how a character might think but when writing you know whether or not it is any good. When a story is good you get a natural kick out of it. You might be the only reader at the time but the kick is still very real. That’s one of the highs I get from writing and if the story is really good I feel that kick for two or three days.
The main reason why I write is for myself and I write what I personally like. Again even if some of the characters are awful people. A lot of my stories are semi-autobiographical. Where I write about previous experiences I might of had. Other stories are simply fiction and bear no similarity with me as a writer.
Having an audience is wonderful but it is not the be all for me. The writing process is cathartic and I always feel good when I write and even better when I have written something good. I like looking at the words on the page and smiling. Knowing that I have written something decent and it came from me and no one else.